Courage and Determination

A lot of people have expressed envy over my recent travels. Yes, I have been around the past 3-4 months that there are moments when I forget where I am when I wake up in the morning. In 14 weeks, I have slept in 9 different beds. I have reunited with friends and family whom I haven't seen in a long time. We have shared stories, seen places, tried new things, and I've learned a lot about myself and what I want and deserve in life. Yes, I had fun, a LOT of fun. For once, I feel less of a need to satisfy other people and more of what I desired for myself. People have repeatedly told me how in awe they were of my strength despite my recent troubles. I have mentioned this before and I've said that in spite of everything, I still consider myself very lucky. I have no reason to complain (much) because I know a lot of other people in the world have much bigger problems than me. I have no right to be screaming "Why must this happen to me?!? WHY ME?!?" I am surrounded by a sincere group of people who have opened their arms and homes and helped me through my recuperation. A separate post dedicated to my gratitude towards these people will be written at another time.

It seems that after my recent heartache, the universe has decided to throw me a bone. Somehow, someway, some force has prevented me from feeling too sorry about a situation that is slowly turning out to be a good opportunity for me to start things for myself. Of course, things are still uncertain for me at this point but I can sense that it is my own fear that's preventing me from pushing forward. I have visited so many different homes and have seen and learned how my friends and family live their lives and run their homes. I took a lot from all of them and made a note to adapt what I've learned in my own life. It has been quite an adventure. I may be broke soon (I may already be close to it :p) but no one can ever take my memories away from me. I know what I want and am aware of all the options I can take to get there. It's just a matter of choosing my path and once again finding the courage to run into the woods with my eyes closed and the wind through my hair while screaming wheeeeeeeeee!!!

7 thoughts on “Courage and Determination”

  1. Way to go Kari! Keep moving forward! We're all rooting for you and I know it'll all work out because you have a good head on those gorgeous shoulders of yours :)

  2. walangya! d porke blog mo to eh pwede ka nang pagbigyan ng mga readers mo! :P

    gorgeous hair pwede pa! hahaha! :) love you Kari! dont forget our motto : F*ck it!

  3. :) hey kari. new lurker to your blog. and in line with everything i've just read and skimmed through, can i just say that i always have been slightly intimidated (rightly so), and am in awe of you.

    wishing you the best because you deserve it. :)